Thursday, June 17, 2010

So, she told me to start a blog.

I haven't journaled in a long time. Can't spell and that's distracting. Can't find time, and that's discouraging. Can't sleep and that's why I made it here.
It's a busy time here. Editing photos, trying to parent, doing an extreme diet, trying to find time for God and failing, planning a trip to Rwanda, dreaming and experiencing limits and often not living up to what I want to do or really should be doing.

Facebook is irritating me because I end up wasting hours a day just accessing it. So I'd rather use this as an outlet. I don't really intend to have this page looked at and viewed by the general public. I just want to look back and remember where I came from. So there's the intent, the hope and dream. At least the condensed version.

Welcome, everyone, to a useful space. Make yourselves at home.

I'm wondering about waking up in the morning and what it will be like to step on the scale. Having lost even a little more weight. My waist is still big, but I'm seeing the numbers go down a bit on that scale. It's been 9 days now on the HCG diet and I lost 13 lbs. I weight 156 today, I think. 125 is a dream and so far away. That wedding dress needs to be worn again. I love putting it back on again and again and again.

No more photo taking until saturday. I think I have about 25 folders of photos that need to be edited. Still no editor either. :( I'm growing weary. But hopeful that soon, this business will be in the hands of someone else. I LOVE being a photographer, but I first was a mother and a strong one in Jesus. I want to go back in a way.

It's time to turn in, nearly 1:30 am now. I want to cuddle my children and then sneak into bed. Good night out there. Whoever you are. :)

In anticipation,
joyous

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